Monday, February 28, 2005
Bjork understands
come to me
i'll take care of you
protect you
calm, calm down
you're exhausted
come lie down
you don't have to explain
i understand
you know
that i adore you
you know
that i love you
so don't make me say it
it would burst the bubble
break the charm
jump off
your building's on fire
i'll catch you
i'll catch you
destroy all
that is keeping you down
and then i'll nurse you
i'll nurse you
come to me
i'll take care of you
you don't have to explain
i understand
i can not live
peacefully without you
for even a moment
l miss you terribly
when you're away
he's away
this ain't right
i'm alone
i'm taking an aeroplane
across the world
to follow my heart
how come out of all the people
in the world
only one
can make me complete
one word on the phone
makes me happy
but one touch directly
makes me ecstatic
he's away
this ain't right
i'm alone
i'm taking an aeroplane
across the world
to follow my heart
we live on a mountain
right at the top
there's a beautiful view
from the top of the mountain
every morning i walk towards the edge
and throw little things off
like:car-parts, bottles and cutlery
or whatever i find lying around
it's become a habit a way
to start the day
i go through this before you wake up
so i can feel happier
to be safe up here with you
it's real early morning
no-one is awake
i'm back at my cliff
still throwing things off
i listen to the sounds they make
on their way down
i follow with my eyes 'til they crash
imagine what my body would sound like
slamming against those rocks
and when it lands
will my eyes
be closed or open?
i'll go through all this
before you wake up
so i can feel happier
to be safe up here with you
bjork..various
for matthew
someday when you are here again I will show you how much
it takes to make this real, no more secrets, no more pain, just a beautiful dream that remains you are my heart beating wildly my eyes gazing out onto the skin the fingers pushing into and burying themselves within take it all take it all divine one all gurus and teachers were at once students and beliving and doing created their new life take it all take it all from inside and out I cry letting the tears fall where they may breaking away the crust and finding a new inside let it be..let it be.theresa2/28/05
wishes
My Wish is this
to have strength
compassion
love uncompromising
yet without limits
unconditional
to be brave
loving to myself
thoughtful
patient
aware of my dreams
conciousness unending
to have faith and hope
to remember that there is time
to be easy on myself but move forward
to hold on to my passions
whatever they may be
willing, useful and light
moderate in thought and deeds
responsible
young at heart
and mind
but wise
may all your wishes come true ....
work on them. I will too.
to have strength
compassion
love uncompromising
yet without limits
unconditional
to be brave
loving to myself
thoughtful
patient
aware of my dreams
conciousness unending
to have faith and hope
to remember that there is time
to be easy on myself but move forward
to hold on to my passions
whatever they may be
willing, useful and light
moderate in thought and deeds
responsible
young at heart
and mind
but wise
may all your wishes come true ....
work on them. I will too.
Sunday, February 27, 2005
If they only knew
If they only knew
would they love you still
If I told the truth
could I lift my head again
You have so far to fall
yet not so far at all
all the thoughts we share
couldnt even begin to redeem us
Would it matter if you were real
and whole, complete like my dream
I am so far from done here
yet my soul is weary and wavering
inside of me,
Do we deserve eachother
is this clear enough for you
reading books all day long
down on hands and knees
filling my eyes with flowers
and white, blue, and red.
Your side here is empty again
but was it ever full at all
or just an illusion of faith
one more day, step in time
in and out breathing
this is the way..
I cannot be a refuge
there is no warmth in my
cold cold heart, just listen
to the echos
moving fingers playing rhymes
take the leap, never again
this is my mountain
my ashram to sit upon
the stars will guide
the sun will shine
and I will survive
New Day
Out from the piles and pillows I crawl
into the light and the dawn
Making my way to the mirror I saw
a face that is weary and drawn
The mourning doves call takes
me back to the places of long ago
memories still
So much to remember,
And more to forget, sure wish
that I had a new pill
Stronger and faster my heart
is becoming, but me
where is it I'm going?
To the light, to the air
the freedom of knowing
truth in all its glory
so for me on this day
its a brand new story
Of hope and redemption
of love and compassion
of dreams and forgiving
of life and of living
this path is so hard
as it always should be
but damn the scenery is great.
into the light and the dawn
Making my way to the mirror I saw
a face that is weary and drawn
The mourning doves call takes
me back to the places of long ago
memories still
So much to remember,
And more to forget, sure wish
that I had a new pill
Stronger and faster my heart
is becoming, but me
where is it I'm going?
To the light, to the air
the freedom of knowing
truth in all its glory
so for me on this day
its a brand new story
Of hope and redemption
of love and compassion
of dreams and forgiving
of life and of living
this path is so hard
as it always should be
but damn the scenery is great.
Friday, February 25, 2005
Thank you,for this.
"Underneath"
Sometimes it's hard when you're so deep inside
To see all you can lose in a blink of an eye
Dreams could be shattered
You could be gone
How would I survive
Cause you're where I belong
My soul-believer
Without you,
I don't know who I would be
Underneath,
I can feel you move through me
Inside out, you surround me
I breathe you like I'm taking my last breath,
you're everything I know
So how could I let you go
Sometimes I listen to a voice that isn't mine
I disconnect from everything inside
And I have made choices
And wasted all the days
I could have been with you
Where my heart stayed
I know you've waited faithfully
Blessing our love even stronger
I've been blessed
For every kiss
For every breath
And I've been touched,
By hands I trust
My love is risen
how could I let you
How could I let you go
(J.S.2003)
Matthew
Darling, where are you now
how can I find you,
here inside the sun is setting and I am lonely
breath is harsh and slow
you in my mind are quiet
but here in my heart so loud
take me away from this solitude,
and show me the dawn
break from me nothing
share in my state
live with my lover
be brave and wait
take my hand as I watch
and then begin again
with me
lowly shadow in my eye
remind you
of time
Thursday, February 24, 2005
mi amo aeturnes
Sometimes I am caught by a great emotion
falling by the side of my heart
reaching out in the dark
brushing the hair from eyes
touching cheek
breathing deep
I can see you so clearly
feel your beat
transformed I am
as you are
miracle o miracle
I cry with joy
falling again..
from heaven we decend
taking off our skin
and being so free
never leave this
dare not take it away
still I am, next to you
heart heart heart
oooo, I am so full
of everything that is
and ever was...thank you.
Tuesday, February 22, 2005
Yes, surrender
Sometimes when you least expect it ,, you finally find the answer
To all those questions deep inside
however you come upon it
let it happen, dont fight it
maybe you will feel that the world
is broken, or tipping in a new direction
than you have ever gone before,
maybe the light seems a little stronger
or the passage of time reaches out
in a different way..
no matter,,
let it go, happen, become
whatever it will be
it will take you and turn you
but you will be free..
To all those questions deep inside
however you come upon it
let it happen, dont fight it
maybe you will feel that the world
is broken, or tipping in a new direction
than you have ever gone before,
maybe the light seems a little stronger
or the passage of time reaches out
in a different way..
no matter,,
let it go, happen, become
whatever it will be
it will take you and turn you
but you will be free..
Saturday, February 19, 2005
What is love
Love is gracious and kind..
or so they say,
Never ending, compassionate
long suffering....
Am I love are you?
I used to think on love
as something, but now
I know it is everything
without it nothing would
exist, so I am love and
so are you, we and all that
is ..is love
I have given myself over to it
because there is no other way
to live it be it survive it
you must let it have you
completely, and know that it
will not hurt you..you will only
hurt yourself if you try to fix
it, or change it, or make it into
something else..
when i am love i feel nothing bad,
no fear, pain, or suffering
just wholeness and light
it is so beautiful, If only
I could hold it ....but
then
it would dissapear
so with open hands and heart
I just trust it believe it
let it be...me
amen
or so they say,
Never ending, compassionate
long suffering....
Am I love are you?
I used to think on love
as something, but now
I know it is everything
without it nothing would
exist, so I am love and
so are you, we and all that
is ..is love
I have given myself over to it
because there is no other way
to live it be it survive it
you must let it have you
completely, and know that it
will not hurt you..you will only
hurt yourself if you try to fix
it, or change it, or make it into
something else..
when i am love i feel nothing bad,
no fear, pain, or suffering
just wholeness and light
it is so beautiful, If only
I could hold it ....but
then
it would dissapear
so with open hands and heart
I just trust it believe it
let it be...me
amen
Wednesday, February 16, 2005
Be Careful
tread light
speak softly
close your eyes
take a breath
hold it tight
Let it slam
spit it out
breath deeper
Scream
LOUD
Take one look
in that glass
watch yourself
minutes pass
by the way
I cant tell
if you really
know it
but inside me
is a bomb
ticking faster
waiting
Dont even try
let it go
listen to it
feel it
growing deep
crawling out
watch your step
again..
I will find you
make you cry
tear you up
wring you out
make a statement
tell the truth
brave and silent
I am you
You wont listen
open your eyes
look inside
find the lie
break your heart
fall right down
you wont take
this time
is out
When I see
it on the dust
covered up
its not much
to look at this
you would think
there is nothing
but finally
you see.
tread light
speak softly
close your eyes
take a breath
hold it tight
Let it slam
spit it out
breath deeper
Scream
LOUD
Take one look
in that glass
watch yourself
minutes pass
by the way
I cant tell
if you really
know it
but inside me
is a bomb
ticking faster
waiting
Dont even try
let it go
listen to it
feel it
growing deep
crawling out
watch your step
again..
I will find you
make you cry
tear you up
wring you out
make a statement
tell the truth
brave and silent
I am you
You wont listen
open your eyes
look inside
find the lie
break your heart
fall right down
you wont take
this time
is out
When I see
it on the dust
covered up
its not much
to look at this
you would think
there is nothing
but finally
you see.
Tuesday, February 15, 2005
whats the word?
What can I say to make it better
What can be done to help you live
How can it quiet the thunder inside me
Or find a reason for all of our sins
what are we doing
why are we here
how can it be like this
If I just say I'm sorry
will it all be ok
or maybe just nothing
is there to fix
Why do I tremble
or cry or worry
about you when you dont even care
or maybe I'm wrong again
and misunderstood
the battle lines seemed so clear
Scarlet red is all I see
and visions cloud my eyes
I shake and pray like
a devotee of some God
that isnt even mine
Wanting it all seems
to be the problem
the root of the evil
the divine
but here it is staring at me
and I cant say I'm sorry
or take it back
even if it wasnt given
just know that its truth
and hope and light
all that I want for you
maybe I am selfish
or cant find the right
way, to say what I feel
anymore
who thought that words would fail me
yet here we are.
What can be done to help you live
How can it quiet the thunder inside me
Or find a reason for all of our sins
what are we doing
why are we here
how can it be like this
If I just say I'm sorry
will it all be ok
or maybe just nothing
is there to fix
Why do I tremble
or cry or worry
about you when you dont even care
or maybe I'm wrong again
and misunderstood
the battle lines seemed so clear
Scarlet red is all I see
and visions cloud my eyes
I shake and pray like
a devotee of some God
that isnt even mine
Wanting it all seems
to be the problem
the root of the evil
the divine
but here it is staring at me
and I cant say I'm sorry
or take it back
even if it wasnt given
just know that its truth
and hope and light
all that I want for you
maybe I am selfish
or cant find the right
way, to say what I feel
anymore
who thought that words would fail me
yet here we are.
with this ring
With this ring
I am bound
to bring myself
to sorrow
with this word
I am found
to be the one
without tommorrow
with this thought
I can't find
another way
to let you go
with this dream
my heart breaks
just one more
I told you so
With this day
I hope to find
a reason here
to ease my mind
With goodbye
I hope you see
the love I have
for you and me
With this ring
my life is given
to you alone
my heart is driven
to endless nights
and days and days
of prayers for you
to find the ways
to be yourself
to be as one
it should be simple
even fun
my only wish
from here is this
that you will see
you are my bliss
With this hope
I will give up
and be myself
and take my cup
of wisdom I am
surely without
but here I am
without a doubt
always yours
you love so well
never let me
forget to tell
its just so sad
because I know
this stupid ring
has got to go
Not from my
finger
not from my head
but from my idea
of love instead
to just surrender
to just believe
that what
we have
is love
indeed.
I am bound
to bring myself
to sorrow
with this word
I am found
to be the one
without tommorrow
with this thought
I can't find
another way
to let you go
with this dream
my heart breaks
just one more
I told you so
With this day
I hope to find
a reason here
to ease my mind
With goodbye
I hope you see
the love I have
for you and me
With this ring
my life is given
to you alone
my heart is driven
to endless nights
and days and days
of prayers for you
to find the ways
to be yourself
to be as one
it should be simple
even fun
my only wish
from here is this
that you will see
you are my bliss
With this hope
I will give up
and be myself
and take my cup
of wisdom I am
surely without
but here I am
without a doubt
always yours
you love so well
never let me
forget to tell
its just so sad
because I know
this stupid ring
has got to go
Not from my
finger
not from my head
but from my idea
of love instead
to just surrender
to just believe
that what
we have
is love
indeed.
Sunday, February 13, 2005
drips
ahhhhhhhh
Drip Drip Drip
I fall through the cracks
I listen and I learn
not to lean
not to burn
its all the same now
it doesnt really matter
you are on through me
and I am alone
where, I dont envy you
with your path
with your punishment
you bleed, I suffer
you torment, I dream
its all the same
no matter
I cant believe it anymore
but in truth my heart
beats ,,still ..finally
drip drip drip...
I fall through the walls
and into the halls
and over and under and below myself again
you are the light to my heart
but the darkness of the world
I cringe and bear the weight of it
so much to see, but not enough
I am alive and well, I am free
you are not. sorry.
Tuesday, February 08, 2005
sand
it covers me
its like my skin
blood and sweat
all over
hard and strong
lasts forever
never leaves me
completely
waves crash
as I listen
to the sound
of my heart
darkness fall
upon my eyes
never alone
just always
part of me
Gathering
underneath
rolling over
to the sea
bringing
treasure
unknown
alive and
free
moving forward
and back
save some
for later
feel it
bite
endless
sand
its like my skin
blood and sweat
all over
hard and strong
lasts forever
never leaves me
completely
waves crash
as I listen
to the sound
of my heart
darkness fall
upon my eyes
never alone
just always
part of me
Gathering
underneath
rolling over
to the sea
bringing
treasure
unknown
alive and
free
moving forward
and back
save some
for later
feel it
bite
endless
sand
Tuesday, February 01, 2005
13
I was always told that 13 was an
unlucky number
but I never believed it till now
13 years, gone by so fast
in the blink of an eye
and yet so long ago it seems
I was warned, wasnt it so,
that 13 wasnt the time to go
off chasing dreams or finding myself
it suddenly means
that 13 is not for me
Maybe 14 will be better
if I try a little more
and keep on dreaming and believing,
maybe one more year in store
for us, we hope that its just the beginning..
so no more running, no more sinning
13 days, 13 hours, 13 minutes how much more
will it take to see you again,
here upon my door
Here is where I'm waiting,
going nowhere fast
standing there before you,
I thought that it would last
Not giving up here, not this time
in my heart is where you are ....there you're only mine
So as you go out into the world,
and find the answers there
remember 13 years ago,
and know how much I care
always yours is how I'm made,
cause 13 isnt enough just yet
Here I am and Here Ive stayed,
never ever forget.
what a life....
unlucky number
but I never believed it till now
13 years, gone by so fast
in the blink of an eye
and yet so long ago it seems
I was warned, wasnt it so,
that 13 wasnt the time to go
off chasing dreams or finding myself
it suddenly means
that 13 is not for me
Maybe 14 will be better
if I try a little more
and keep on dreaming and believing,
maybe one more year in store
for us, we hope that its just the beginning..
so no more running, no more sinning
13 days, 13 hours, 13 minutes how much more
will it take to see you again,
here upon my door
Here is where I'm waiting,
going nowhere fast
standing there before you,
I thought that it would last
Not giving up here, not this time
in my heart is where you are ....there you're only mine
So as you go out into the world,
and find the answers there
remember 13 years ago,
and know how much I care
always yours is how I'm made,
cause 13 isnt enough just yet
Here I am and Here Ive stayed,
never ever forget.
what a life....
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