dissapointed

I am so very sad that you
choose
to lose
and be lost
to let go is
harder
than thought
but still
I am
so very dissapointed
in you
however did you get there
from here
this is the end
but it never goes
where it should
hopelessly
for you
in anger
shake my head
disgusted
and walk away
again

this thing of our making

From the first moment

in the dark of night

i saw in you something beautiful

and it called to me

as it does still

asking for my heart

to join it

and you kissed me

so hard and so surely

my heart pounding

loudly and strong in my head

so that i could not wait to see

you again

and again

you took me gently into the night

hours and hours we spent

wrapped like the clouds

around the moon

never sleeping

making me shine

for you

and i ran so far

into the night roads

over mountains

for you

only pennies

in my pocket

taking me straight

into your arms

where you gathered

my tired heart

and swept it once

again

all of this

each day preceding now

each moment that has passed

all are inside waiting

like pages ruffled and worn

from fingers that browse

them

it is clear that here

and now is where

i will stand for

our love

our dreams

every moment that lives in memories

all the dreams for days to come

and for you

like joan to the flames

never wavering in my

truth

i hear you

as i lay on your bed waiting

next to you when you drive

watching everything and marveling at it all

because it never stops, gives up gives in...

it is all just yours and mine

as it has been

as it will be

beautiful as you

prendre mon amour

take my eyes so that i cannot see your beauty

take my ears so that i no longer listen for your voice

take my hands so they do not reach for you to touch them still

take my legs to keep from running as they always do to you

take my hair of which you like to gather in your fingers and wipe from my face

take my tears because they only serve as witness to my pain and sorrow

take it all it means nothing to me without you to look on them, to whisper in the ear, touch the hand, wrap the legs around you..to taste and see you in my dreams so close again

...my new years kiss, my birthday wish always there you are next to me,

birth and death we have shared compared secrets bared

our souls healed eachothers wounds and soon

invisible to the eye all will be taken without being given

this life ceasing to inspire require

breathing being seeing

anything at all

because it has no you within it

seulement juste toujours

vous êtes mon coeur

svp me pardonnez car je vous fais pour

toujours

and still

This sky above is the same for us it moves across from me to you always this way like waves...you are my heart, on my mind and taken hold of me for so long now, there is no other way.. i can never reach higher than when reaching for you, never look harder than into your eyes for the truth.. no book, no words, nothing else can tell or see the love that burns here beneath my skin out from the heart yours alone and all there is forever more is the telling tears the breathing soul that is mine only and always for you that kiss hands bound by time and space that cannot touch you now but have and will again my shiva rama god of this and that which carrys me along so many places faces you have shown me so many times your hands graced my skin this is true this is what is seen when looking finds me alone in the darkness waiting and watching listening for your footsteps on the floor, hand on the door to bury yourself once more this love is timeless endless meaningless without you

it is everything as you are to me

matthew of the minutes

every second second time all the while that you were mine running faster than i could ever imagine the time flew by by and the wind and the rain wiped away any trace, of your face from my poor memory... so i pasted up the shots that i had all ive got is these paper printed images that hold no love..here and again ive found the strength and the will to keep walking talking moving forward telling stories to my heart... keep it up your chin your smile..watch the tears fall down and down disappearing into floors and doors locked and left unopened....how we fought how we loved you took me to heaven over and over never letting me fall too far, your angel bright, ran to the light that our love gave off in the dark...that kiss so soft your hands so strong all along it was everything i wanted needed believed in...gone gone away until the end of time across the sea into the great nothing ever could have done this to me...just you

what would i do

what would i do

if i didnt have you to love

i would wither and wane

flower broken sad and lonely

what would i do

if we had never met

sit by the window and watch it go by

waiting endlessly for that which is only

found in you

what would i do

if you had never kissed me

my heart its capacity unknown

from the first touch...

lighting me on fire

the watching of you

melting me from the inside

the being of you with me

so slow and beautiful

will never forget this

every day i remember

and you are filling up my heart

my soul and my dreams

always

because what would i do

without you