you are my most beautiful

REM...
"At My Most Beautiful"

I've found a way to make you smile
I've found a way
A way to make you smile

I read bad poetry
Into your machine.
I save your messages
Just to hear your voice.
You always listen carefully
To awkward rhymes.
You always say your name,
Like I wouldn't know it's you,
At your most beautiful.

I've found a way to make you smile
I've found a way
A way to make you smile

At my most beautiful
I count your eyelashes, secretly.
With every one, whisper I love you.
I let you sleep.
I know you're closed eye watching me,
Listening.
I though I saw a smile.

Redemption

Every time I open my eyes, each morning to the cold , of empty arms and bed...a clutching of the chest and heart .. .so hollow inside without the completeness of you, the warmth I miss so deeply there is nothing that can fill or fix it..What have I done, walking away from you..never believing that it could go this far, and now alone I sit, waiting for a glimpse a touch a smile from you.. every day a long journey through until I can catch just a piece of yours...waiting for your arms to encompass me again, your mouth to taste my love, your eyes to devour me over and over... I would climb up a mountain, swim through the rivers of hell and back to have that chance once again ...one that i never gave up completely, but foolishly for a moment turned my back...didnt listen...but i hear you..i heard you ...and you called out to me, there is a spot in our souls that is only open for us.. and we are forever lost without eachother..so take my heart, my eyes my hands in yours and see the truth ..I am yours

tempest heart

This life
so long and winding
binding grinding away the days
my heart is so young and strong
damaged but not broken completely
In this space, this place I sit and
I wait
for someone
to consider me precious
valuable, beautiful and wild
like a vining rose
watch out for the thorns
the horns of the devil
on my back you love

my rambling thoughts and dreams
spilling out like water onto the land
soaking into you
is it refreshing
or drowning you tonight
you may be right
I may be crazy
but this tempest heart
is ever so lonely
and beats like a drum
in my brain

you turned my head and
kissed my neck
all that i said
was listened
and learned
and now not to take
is a fearful mistake
one step at a time

to calm this heart
and open these eyes
feel the wind in my hair
and stare

back
at
you

There is a space somewhere out there that lingers on the edge of time, open and willing me to touch it with both hands.. but you in your infinite patience and cruelty look upon something else and turn your face away from me, to it do this thing and it will break my heart forever again and again this thing this sin that you leave me bleeding seething and half of our whole is missing

you lie you steal precious moments from our history our future;this is not where I walked to with you this is only where you took yourself away, believe I did over and under the water of my broken faces and its impossible no more pictures no more it bears itself but the weight is too great...let love back and into my heart you reside not for her

not for her

not for her

not for you

please dont lie to me...

Hallelujah,,jeff buckley..so lovely and so sad..

Well I heard there was a secret chord
that David played and it pleased the Lord
But you don't really care for music, do you?
Well it goes like this:The fourth, the fifth, the minor fall
and the major lift
The baffled king composing Hallelujah
Hallelujah Hallelujah Hallelujah Hallelujah

Well your faith was strong
but you needed proof
You saw her bathing on the roof
Her beauty and the moonlight overthrew you
She tied you to her kitchen chair
She broke your throne
and she cut your hair
And from your lips she drew
the Hallelujah
Hallelujah Hallelujah Hallelujah Hallelujah


Well Baby I've been here before
I've seen this room and i've walked this floor,
I used to live alone before I knew you
And I've seen your flag on the marble arch
But love is not a victory march
It's a cold and it's a broken Hallelujah
Hallelujah
Hallelujah Hallelujah Hallelujah


Well there was a time when you let me know
What's really going on below
But now you never show that to me do you
But remember when I moved in you
And the holy dove was moving too
And every breath we drew was Hallelujah
Hallelujah Hallelujah
Hallelujah Hallelujah


Maybe there is a God above
But all I've ever learned from love
Was how to shoot somebody who outdrew you
And it's not a cry that you hear at night
It's not somebody who's seen the light
It's a cold and it's a broken Hallelujah
Hallelujah...Hallelujah